First fill.....

Well I had my first fill. I also found out my scales are evil liars! He he I haven't lost 8.9kg like i though but 5.5 (which I am still happy about). I thought I'd cry but didn't ha ha. The nurse said I was doing well which I was happy about!

So, Prof called me in and got me to lie on the table. I was shaking so much. So he sticks the needle in and it was a little ouch. But then, my worst nightmare, he started moving it around, pressing it down and OUCHHHHHH!!! Boy did it hurt. I was such a sook breathing erratically and suppressing my squeals. So this lasted about 3 mins (felt like forever!) then Prof says "Hmm, I think we need a bigger needle." My reaction "Um, WHAT!?" So he gets a bigger needle, and goes in for second time lucky, was a small prick and then........................................... couldn't feel a thing and he said "All done!" apparently I'm still a little bit swollen and the larger needle worked a treat! But I have to go back in 2 weeks for another fill and hopefully it'll be first time's the charm! I had 4.7 mil in it and he put in another 0.7mil. I spoke to a lovely girl there today waitng for my turn. It is so nice to meet someone face to face and chat about it. I felt really happy and proud. She looked really good too which made me feel even better.

Thanks for all the lovely comments as well, It means the world to me =)

Well that was my horrifying experience. Lol what a baby!!

Yawn

Oh what a lovely Sunday it is today! I love staying at home when it's all cold and miserable outside and I'm inside snuggled in! It's great!

Well I am starting to see bone definition returning where my neck/shoulders are. A-MAZING! I havn't seen this for at least 2 years. What a fantastic feeling. My boobs have gotten smaller, I hardly fit into my bras. My face is a little slimmer and my eyes aren't as squinty and fat (lol) as they used to be. I am starting to feel a lot more confident within myself which is very exciting.

I have my first fill on Tuesday, this is most exciting. I can't wait to see the Prof, he is so lovely. I can feel the port under my skin/fat and it feels very strange. Doesn't hurt, I just feels weird. My scars are healing so well. i am a little surprised actually. They are so small.

Anywho I guess I should start to make some dinner.

xoxo

Busy...

Well sorry it's taken me so damn long to write a new blog! I am now back at work and busy :-( I really want a new job but don;t have the confidence for interviews yet. When I lose more weight I think (hope) i'll be fine.

I can't wait to have my first fill and getting hungrier and hungrier! I have been using will power up until now mainly but still find i am eating a hell of a lot less than i used to.

Still havn't weighed myself, I am going to wait til I go to Prof's as I just became to obsessed jumping on the scales every hour! What a nutter!!

I am healing really well, I have a thin line which is my major scar and 4 little ones which are scabbed and hardly noticible, i am so happy how they have healed so well. Oh and I did take my dressings off about a week and a half ago and my tummy didnt split open in 2 like i imagined it would haha.

Not much else to report really, i feel like i have a lot more energy nowadays and am even walking up and down the stairs of the carpark where i park my car every day for a little bit of added exercise.