Super!

The pros of losing weight-

• People finally giving you POSITIVE comments!
• Having more energy.
• Having more $$ as you don't spend so much on food.
• NOT FEELING HUNGRY!
• Eating to live, not living to eat.
• Putting on clothes that NEVER used to fit but magically they now do, and are loose!
• Having a giant smile on your face!
• Being more confident.
• Going to a restaurant and people not looking at you like your a fat pig.
• Walking down the street without someone making a snide comment.
• Attention from the opposite sex!
• BEING HAPPY!!!!

So today I am feeling good. Friday night I went to a restaurant and ate something and no one stared at me. This was the first time in a long time. I felt so damn happy. Then went to a bar and a male flirted with me! Then today at work, one of my friends I have not seen in a couple of weeks said "hello, OH MY GOD! LOOK AT YOU! You look great!"

Right now I am on cloud 9, i hope this feeling continues!

LOL lazy!

Hi everyone, sorry about the HUGE delay between posts. Frankly, I had forgotten my password and have only just reset it!

So what's been going on with my band? Not much! I went for my 4th fill on Thursday with a different Doc. I was so damn nervous because for the whole week leading up to it I had convinced myself I had put on weight. I was so scared of the nurse and the doc! I jumped on the scales and my face fell, 131.4kg :( I turned to the nurse who had a big smile on her face. I said "Oh my god! I can't believe I haven't lost any weight!" She gave me a weird look and pointed to the computer. Since my last visit (which mind you was 5 weeks ago) I had lost 5.5kg! JOY! I couldn't believe it. I had totally forgotten what my last weight was until she showed me. I am SO SO SO close to the 120's I can taste it! He he.

I have stepped up my exercise a bit with doing light weights, walking (god i hate it, I live in an area that has so many damn hills), push ups, sit ups, star jumps and some other stuff. Every time I exercise it gets so much easier. I am feeling good and people are starting to notice which is always nice :)

BUT of course I have my bad days. My really really really bad days where I just have a shit day and eat Maccas. It tastes like shit but somehow I am still addicted. I have seriously been considering seeing a psychologist or someone that can help me through it but I wouldn't know where to start.

My Mum had her stomach stapled in the 90's and she has lost heaps of weight. I hear it only lasts 10 years but hers is still working. She has a horrid scar on her stomach where they did it but she looks so amazing now, so small! But she has a lot of problems eating a lot of things. With alot of what she eats she has to run to the bathroom and vomit. Which is scary. I am so glad the Lap Band is now available instead of this horrible 'stapling'. I wish my Mum could of had the band.

First fill.....

Well I had my first fill. I also found out my scales are evil liars! He he I haven't lost 8.9kg like i though but 5.5 (which I am still happy about). I thought I'd cry but didn't ha ha. The nurse said I was doing well which I was happy about!

So, Prof called me in and got me to lie on the table. I was shaking so much. So he sticks the needle in and it was a little ouch. But then, my worst nightmare, he started moving it around, pressing it down and OUCHHHHHH!!! Boy did it hurt. I was such a sook breathing erratically and suppressing my squeals. So this lasted about 3 mins (felt like forever!) then Prof says "Hmm, I think we need a bigger needle." My reaction "Um, WHAT!?" So he gets a bigger needle, and goes in for second time lucky, was a small prick and then........................................... couldn't feel a thing and he said "All done!" apparently I'm still a little bit swollen and the larger needle worked a treat! But I have to go back in 2 weeks for another fill and hopefully it'll be first time's the charm! I had 4.7 mil in it and he put in another 0.7mil. I spoke to a lovely girl there today waitng for my turn. It is so nice to meet someone face to face and chat about it. I felt really happy and proud. She looked really good too which made me feel even better.

Thanks for all the lovely comments as well, It means the world to me =)

Well that was my horrifying experience. Lol what a baby!!

Yawn

Oh what a lovely Sunday it is today! I love staying at home when it's all cold and miserable outside and I'm inside snuggled in! It's great!

Well I am starting to see bone definition returning where my neck/shoulders are. A-MAZING! I havn't seen this for at least 2 years. What a fantastic feeling. My boobs have gotten smaller, I hardly fit into my bras. My face is a little slimmer and my eyes aren't as squinty and fat (lol) as they used to be. I am starting to feel a lot more confident within myself which is very exciting.

I have my first fill on Tuesday, this is most exciting. I can't wait to see the Prof, he is so lovely. I can feel the port under my skin/fat and it feels very strange. Doesn't hurt, I just feels weird. My scars are healing so well. i am a little surprised actually. They are so small.

Anywho I guess I should start to make some dinner.

xoxo

Busy...

Well sorry it's taken me so damn long to write a new blog! I am now back at work and busy :-( I really want a new job but don;t have the confidence for interviews yet. When I lose more weight I think (hope) i'll be fine.

I can't wait to have my first fill and getting hungrier and hungrier! I have been using will power up until now mainly but still find i am eating a hell of a lot less than i used to.

Still havn't weighed myself, I am going to wait til I go to Prof's as I just became to obsessed jumping on the scales every hour! What a nutter!!

I am healing really well, I have a thin line which is my major scar and 4 little ones which are scabbed and hardly noticible, i am so happy how they have healed so well. Oh and I did take my dressings off about a week and a half ago and my tummy didnt split open in 2 like i imagined it would haha.

Not much else to report really, i feel like i have a lot more energy nowadays and am even walking up and down the stairs of the carpark where i park my car every day for a little bit of added exercise.

Bored

Well it's Thursday today and not long now til im back at work =( although I am quite bored at home. Thank god for Foxtel though, I don't think I could have survived without it. I love being here though when it's raining and cold outside and i'm sunuggled in all warm inside, those are the best days.

Anyway, I havn't weighed myself again, I will keep it at once a week, which will be mondays. I think I'd get too obsessed if I weighed myself everyday, like if i put on weight I'd probably cry!

I think my wounds are healing nicely, I have been too chicken to take off the dressings permanantly. I am affraid that if i take them off and i go for a walk they will split open! Haha I am a weirdo but meh what can ya do eh? I am planning on removing the dressings tomorrow and just bighting the bullet.

Well I will have to see Prof on the 12th of august, how frightening! He said I will have a fill.... YIKES! I am not excited about a needle getting stuck into my belly, thats for sure. Does it hurt? I hate needles but I guess I coped with the anestheic and blood test so hopefully I'll be fine =)

Oh my God....

I got my scales today. Weighed myself.... 136.00kg. This can't be right. Jumped back on, 136.00kg. Well I certainly hope this is right. Because right now I am in a state of elation! OMG!!!!